Sentiments 2

तेरी हर जरा सी ख़ुशी के लिए
खुद को मिटाने को ये दिल करे

तेरे दिल को दुखाऊ जो भूले से में
खुद से रूठ जाने को यह दिल करे

तेरी राह में कभी अँधेरा ना हो
तारे तोड़ लाने को ये दिल करे

तिनका तिनका चुन चुन के जन्नत कि खुशिया
एक बसेरा बनाने को ये दिल करे

क्या कहू मेरे दिल कि है हालत अजब
तुझे देखते ही जाने को ये दिल करे

तेरा मुझसे है मिलना धोका अगर
बार बार धोका खाने को ये दिल करे
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अपना हर गम गिला मुझको आया नजर
उसकी नम आंखो को मैंने देखा कहा

वह हंसी वो ख़ुशी थी छुपाये हुए
अपने भीतर कही एक अलग दासता

अपने चेहरे से शातिर ने गायब किया
हर शिकन सारे गम का नामो निशाँ

उसके दिल कि सिसक, दर्द कि इन्तिहाँ
ना मैं समझा ना बोली उसकी जुबां

अपना मिलना ना मंजूर था जहान को
ये जुदाई ही है वक़्त का फैसला

देर से ही मगर तुझको समझा हू मैं
मेरे दोस्त तू ही है अब भी मेरा खुदा
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कुछ इस तरह से मेरी जिंदगानी हुई
टूटे शीशे के जैसी कहानी हुई

टूटता है शीशा फिर भी एक बार जिंदगी मे
मेरे दिल से कई बार बे-ई-मानी हुई

कोरे कागज़ पे लिखके मिटाया हो जैसे
बार बार सिलसिला दोहराया हो जैसे

चंद यादे ही मेरी निशानी हुई
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दूरियों मे खुद के दिल का रह रह के रोना
सामने मुस्कुराने का नाम दोस्ती है

किस्मत का लिखा जानता है दिमाग
दिल को पल-पल मनाने का नाम दोस्ती है

एक सवाल जिससे दिल मे उलझने बहुत है
वही दोस्त को समझाने का नाम दोस्ती है

दोस्ती मे किया हुआ हर एक वादा
उमर भर निभाने का नाम दोस्ती है
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During times when the sun is gone.
When everybody leaves and i am all alone
When eyes are wet and the time is blue
Who empowers me in only you

From starting till now how friendly you have been.
God's presence can be felt but he never can be seen.
Sometimes we find God within us, though.
Same God of mine i found in you
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Life or Illusion

Days keeps passing and something in the back of our mind keeps telling us that we are getting more and more mature... that we are understanding this world better and somehow tomorrow when we get something, we will be able to live a better life. Sometimes i think that this illusionary maturity doesn't give us much. In fact it takes away a lot from us. With the passing time we keep taking ourself more and more distant from a natural human being. We keep pretending to ourself that we are getting mature, whereas we stop crying, we stop demanding, we stop behaving stupid, we stop being illogical, we try to be accurate which doesn't seem to be our true nature...

We meet people, say hello, and in response to the question "how are you", we always show as if we are the happiest person in the world.. but fooling whom? inside ourselves, we know that we are lying. But how to tell a stranger that actually we are not so happy, in fact very sad... so sad that we think about killing ourself, so sad that we don't find even a single person in the large crowd who is like us. And even if we tell someone that we are sad, who cares... The other person is as lost as we are and somehow people seem to have different -2 requirements so that two people just don't complement each other.

Even if two people complement each other, one person's requirement changes so fast that the other person doesn't complement him any more after sometime. When we are inside our problems (or illusions ??), it seems as if these are the biggest problems of the world, then howcome after these are filled, we suddenly seem to have other problems and the person who solved them seem to look like a burden? or at least doesn't hold that much value. Are we too selfish, changing nature animals who doesn't know what actually he wants and after getting that starts thinking of something else?

Coming back to maturity one gets in spending his valuable life... what does one get out of it? i have seen people in their final years of life committing suicide, getting worried for smallest things, being greedy, hating others... as if they have not learnt anything significant from their past time.. in fact as if they were better when they were child. what does one learn... and most of those who argue that committing suicide is taking the easy route are those who have no guts to suicide.

People, with passing time stop listening. As they have knowledge, they take it as "right" whereas "right" seems to be different for different person.. more so at different time.. how can "right" be generalized? but people starts thinking with their knowledge as if they are right and anyone saying something else is not... they stop listening to others..

And out of whole knowledge possible, how much can an individual have?... negligible.. then what is this proud for? what are we competing for? and with whom? no matter how much knowledge we have and how more or better than others, it will be insignificant as compared to the whole... then what is this illusion of knowledge? how can one be superior than other on the basis of his knowledge? but people, with their passing age seem to forget this. Are we in our best possible mode when we come to the world and then with time keep getting lost?

People, after getting some knowledge, not only stop listening to others, they also create good and bad, right and wrong for others to follow. How can one think that his little knowledge can generalize good/bad, right/wrong for billions of humans who inherently are too different from each other. Almost all relationships puts rectrictions in one's life, stops him from living the way he wants.. then why people follow the social custom of relationships, marriage etc. One seem to be happiest when there is no burden on him, no burden of looking good to others and himself, no burden of fulfilling other's dreams, no burden of following rules set by others. Wandering free like animals... why do we want to prove that we are any better than animals.. they seem to be happier than us. Whats the significance of this betterment which comes on the cost of happiness.
If one believes in life after death, then he would also believe in renouncing as a way because it seems true that enjoying life creates attraction towards it. Now what is our fault that we have to renounce life? why should we renounce life for some lives and then get out of this cycle? if this is how it is then why were we thrown in this cycle at all and by whom?

If we don't believe cycle of life and death, then those people would be living their life in best possible way who give a damn to the world. Who live their own way no matter what others think, whether others are happy or sad, whether or not his acts make others angry, who doesn't think before taking other's lives... or to any other extent till the time he is happy.

Looks like there are infinite levels of illusions, one illusion solved and another illusion, at different level appears. Ultimately no matter how many illusions one solves, he is inside one illusion at some or the other level. Then how is it better to solve some or many illusions and stay in a higher level of illusion than staying in first level of illusion? Should one stay where he is, looking at the rat race the world is into and doing nothing?

Ultimately one has limited time. what to do!!!